WHY IT FEELS LIKE CHEATING WHEN I TRY TO MOVE ON




It feels like cheating, because I promised I wouldn’t leave, no matter the circumstances.

Even when life pulled us apart, that promise refused to die. 

I built worlds that never came to be ,

Shaped futures that now haunt the silence.


It feels like cheating,

Because my heart still clings to that promise…

Even when insulted, ignored, thrown aside like a page no one wanted to read,

Even when I abandoned self‑respect and offered it all  to someone who wouldn’t even notice.



It feels like cheating,

Not of a person,

But of a silence that lives within,

A chapter still beating between the lines.


It feels like cheating,

Because some moments never die.

They sink deep, like songs that haunt midnight air,

Like footprints pressed into the soil of a heart that refused to forget.



It feels like cheating,

Because loving them was never just about who they were

It was about who I became with them.

To walk away means to bury a part of myself,

To accept that some versions of ‘us’ can only survive in memories.



It feels like cheating,

Because a new smile reminds of an old one,

A new hand brushing mine finds a ghost between the fingers.

Every step forward stumbles upon a shadow left behind.



It feels like cheating,

Because no matter how much time passes,

Some connections have no expiry date.

They whisper in quiet moments, “Remember?”



That’s why it feels like cheating.

Not because I don’t deserve to move on,

And not because I want to forget,

But because some loves aren’t just moments,

They are threads stitched into the very fabric of who we are.

And no matter where I go from here,

No matter who I try to hold next…

A part of me will always belong to a chapter that shaped my very being.



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